Monday, July 27, 2009

Good afternoon everybody. Wow, it's definitely been a while since I've written. But it's okay; you probably needed the break because my posts were way too long. Hahaha. I've had a lot of time on my hands.

Well, I've been staying at home most of the time. I go out every once in a while, so I don't become a hermit or anything. I went to Cue with Holly and Nina last Friday, and then our family went shopping. I got some clothes at Forever21, but it's getting a little bit more expensive. Probably because of that new tax. How depressing. Oh well, the clothes I bought are very cute. (:

I just finished studying for the SAT. I need to study hard so I can go to a good college. (: Yay! Hahaha. But the math section is so hard. I look at a problem and all I can think is, "What?" * Sigh But it's okay. I'll pray to God and hopefully He'll help me. Hahaha.

Well, I should probably go eat lunch now. I'm having such a relaxing summer. Hope you guys are having fun. Byeeeee.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Oh my gosh, I just found out that Crystal has a blog! Maybe she'll read this (: Hi Crystal! Hahaha. Well I'm talking with her on the phone, and we had a very nice conversation(: It was very soothing and comforting to talk with her. Thank you Crystal! hahaha.

Summer has been so great. I've never felt more content. But I mustn't get too comfortable... junior year is coming up and I need to prepare. Pray that I will work hard! Hahaha.

Well I don't have much to say. I think I need to tone up (; hahaha. Yeah, I've just been hanging out at home most of the time. I need to go summer shopping... haha, maybe get a dress and wear it one day :O it could happen! Hahaha. I told Dae that I'd wear one once a week every summer, but... I haven't worn one. LOL. I'll go looking for oneeee (: I haven't found any I liked.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Good evening you guys (: I came back from San Jose a while ago, but I don't want to write much about that. I'm waiting until the pictures come back from Uncle Gil. He said he was going to send it to me via email, so now I'm just waiting. It was an amazing trip, and I can't wait to go back during winter break!

Well anyway, I just wanted to write in here because I felt like it. I haven't written in a while, again. But I guess it's better than not writing for a bajillion months, or even a year. No offense to people who blog like that. Hahaha. I'm just sort of anxious about my future. I've been giving a lot of thought about it, especially tonight, and it's really scary to think about. I have no idea what I want to be, what I want to do... I thought I was sure about my major, but now I'm just second-guessing myself. My teachers from Megastudy and my family all tell me that I need to have a plan for what I want to do in college, but I honestly have no idea. I don't know what lies in my future; isn't that a little frightening? What's going to happen when I get to college, which isn't that far away if I get accepted anywhere. Where will I go? All these questions won't be erased from my mind any time soon. I think it's just going to get bigger and bigger junior year. I think the only thing I can do is work hard to get where I want to go, and let God show me what He wants me to do.

I need to - WANT TO - pray and ask God for guidance. I guess this is all part of letting Him be the center of my life. I want to entrust everything to Him, because I know He has a great plan for me. Hopefully He'll let me know soon. His timing is perfect. I also pray that whatever He wants me to do, I'll accpet it willingly and happily, because it's God's will. I pray that I won't complain, but I'll just do it; I know God knows me, and He'll think of a future for me that I will be happy to have. Please pray for me also. Prayer is stronger if more than one person is doing it.

My friend Ngoc got his AP World History test score two days ago. I haven't gotten anything. I'm worried it's lost in the mail. But I shouldn't worry. I need to calm down. I think all this pressure about school and college and grades and... UGH. But if I want to get there, then I gotta work for it. Hahaha. NOBODY SAID IT'D BE EASY(: Please pray that God will give me the strength to work hard and never give up. I need perseverence. Hopefully I did well on my AP test. I had a good feeling about it when I took it, but I'm afraid to trust it. I don't want to get cocky and get my hopes up only to have them crushed when I open that envelope. Whatever the result, I think the fact that I passed the class is good enough for me. At the beginning of the year I thought I'd fail... but I passed! Just goes to show that if you work hard and have God on your side, you can do well (: Okay, this is getting pretty religious. Hahaha, how nice.

Well, that's all I'm going to write for now. It's time for me to get some shut-eye. Nice writing in here every once in a while. Makes me feel lighter when I have worries.

xoxo, phoebe