Okay, so my computer's not in my room yet. I'm using my dad's computer(: Hahaha, how funny. But I've got a whole schedule on what I'm going to do today. I've got lots to do on my agenda:

1:00 PM - Work on APUSH summer assignment
a) Make a prewrite for the intro paragraph of my essay
b) Start on map 1 (make an outline AT LEAST)
c) Memorize ten presidents

2:00 PM - Study for the SAT
a) Go over problems missed on diagnostic test
b) Follow study plan in the book

3:30 PM - Practice flute(: doo dee doo

4:30 PM - Study for APUSH
a) Write notes for one chapter in book
b) Answer questions in the back of chapter

5:45 PM - Flute Lesson

Phew, I've got a lot of stuff to do. I just won't think about it until 1:00 PM(: Please pray for me so that I won't get distracted. I need to concentrate. This is all to get really good study habits and to turn myself into a nerd for junior year. I wanna go to Berkeley! Top 4%~ I hope I can do it! Fighting(:

So far my summer has bene pretty relaxing. Just staying at home and chilling. Right now I'm all alone at my house, which is very nice. I still get scared sometimes because I'm afraid that somebody might break in or something, but not as much as I used to. Now it's just very comforting. I feel so comfortable. Wheeeee(: Hahaha.

Well, I'm going to stop here for now. Hope you guys are having an amazing summer! Here's a song by Taylor Swift and Colbie Callait called "Breathe". It's so beautiful and sad! I love you, Taylor! (; hahaha.

Hellooo(: I'm typing this blog post with my brother's new laptop. It's his birthday today and my dad bought it for him. I'm so jealousss. It's not even like he needs one. He freakin' took the computer my friends made for me as his own because my dad decided to put it in his room. Now he gets a new laptop? Grrr. I want one too, but it's okay. I'll be patient(: Hahaha. At least I can get my own computer in MY room instead of his. I can do whatever I want. This might make typing blog posts a lot more convenient. I hate having to go to my dad's room all the time.

Grr, I felt very grouchy this morning. My dad and brother and I went for a jog this morning, and my brother made me feel even MORE grouchy because I thought he was acting bratty. I was so annoyed. But it's okay, I'll just try to forget about it while I clean my room.

My camera's broken ): So sadd. I'll just have to take cool photos with my cool phone(: Well, I'll write later. I feel bad for using my brother's laptop for my own use. The next time I go on blogger, I'll be typing from my own computer(: Later.

xoxo, phoebe

Wow, it's been a while since I've written. Good afternoon my friends. It's been exactly a week since my last entry. Wow. Well, a lot has happened since then, and I will try my best to remember everything.

Well, this week my family started running together. Well, I was running; everybody else was walking. But it's okay, I'm glad they're sitll exercising. I want my family to be as healthy as possible. Maybe they'll run with me soon enough. I think this has brought our family closer. I definitely feel closer to my mom. Yeah, we snap at each other from time to time, but we usually get along well nowadays. On Wednesday, my mom and I persuaded my brother to go jogging/walking with us at Bolsa Chica Beach (the weather was so nice), and afterwards we ate at IHOP and went to the South Coast Plaza. My mom went shopping while my brother and I went to Barnes & Noble's. It was overall a really relaxing, great day. I felt so content. Exercising has now become a family activity I think. Hopefully this will help bring us closer together(:

I also started going to Megastudy this week. I go every Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. Tuesday and Thursday are math days, while Fridays are English days. I'm more excited about the English class than the math, but I'll study hard in both subjects so I'll be well-prepared for junior year. I'm revisiting Geometry and Algebra 2 while learning Trig, and after every lesson I always get this pounding headache ): No joke. But it's okay. I think it'll get easier every week, and I'll become a math genius by the time summer's over. (...) Okay, maybe not a math GENIUS, but you get my point (: Teacher John also let me borrow an AP US History book so I can be prepared for at least one of my AP classes next year. I've got a summer assignment to do, but I know that I can do it if I really want to do it. Must Work Hard! Please pray for me!

I've also started reading the Bible everyday and writing in a journal. I think that's why my blog posts have been further and further apart. It's kind of hard to keep consistent because I'm busy, but when I'm done reading I feel inspired to become a better christian everyday. I think reading the Bible and thinking more about God has helped me to gain a new perspective. Before I think I'd set myself up for failure by trying to be perfect; but now I just want to do MY best. I'll probably have days when I feel discouraged, but I'll keep on praying and asking God to lend me His strength and ask Him for passion for whatever I want to do. I know He'll answer my prayers, and I'll stay faithful to Him(: I was actually talking to my friend on the phone, and he was asking me all these questions about God that I couldn't answer; I don't think he was trying to persuade me to not believe in God or anything because he's one of my closest friends, but I felt so stubborn when he asked me those questions. Even though I had no answer, I know that God is all-knowing, benevolent, and just (: But I'll study God's word diligently, so if my friend asks again, I'll have an answer for him.

Tonight there's going to be a church bonfire. Pastor Peter is picking me up. Noel and Song can't go, so I'm a little bummed. But it's okay, because Sam's going, and I can get to know Catherine, Alfred, and Michelle a little more(: I don't think I tried hard enough to get to know them, but hopefully God will help me to get over my timidness and we can be good friends (: Hopefully Henry, Susana, and Harah will come too. Then we can all grow closer together as a YG family. YAY! Hahaha.

Well, I think I'll stop there for now. Hopefully you had fun reading this little blog post (: I wish you all an amazing summer, and LIVE WITH NO REGRETS! Hahaha.

xoxo, phoebe

Yay, it's summer! (: Sorry it's been a while since I've written in here; I was really busy with finals and EVERYTHING! I think I did well in all my classes, EXCEPT Algebra 2~ ._________. (sigh) Oh well. LOL.

Well, today I'm gonna hang out with Song and Noel and Kenny! We're gonna go to Cue's. How fun will that be? LOL. I've never been to Cue before, but it looks like a lot of fun. FINALLY I get to have one of those sticker photos. heehee.

Mm, I thought we'd be going to the beach today with the church, but I guess Pastor Peter is still really sick ): I kind of wanted to ask him via email if we were going, but then I thought that would sound kind of rude... so I guess we're not going. LOL, it's okayyyy. I still get to go to the beach tomorrow because of the track bonfire. I'm making kimbab for everybody! My mom needs to help me though... I need to make a LOT of kimbab! LOL. I hope she helps me...if she doesn't then I'm screwed. O_________O

Well, summer so far has been really relaxing; and it's only day 2! Yesterday, it felt so good to wake up without an alarm clock. I woke up at 8:20. This morning I woke up at 9:15. I slept late last night (: hahahahaha. But I guess all good things must come to an end, because I have to go to a tutoring place over the summer~ But it's okay! It's in preparation for my junior year, and the SAT, and I need to improve my study habits. Wish me luck! Help me to study hard (:

I think I also want spend this summer becoming closer to God and having a stronger relationship with him. I think I lost a lot of it this year because of school, but I'm ready to pursue Him wholeheartedly! Please pray for me so I can become closer to Him and learn to depend on Him for everything (:

Wow, this is a long blog. Hahaha. Well, I'm kind of scared about the future. Or, my future. What college will I be accepted into? Can I get into the colleges I want? What will be my major in college? What about a job? What if I get out of college, what will I do? My head is filled with so many questions, I don't even want to think about it. But I guess it's necessary, so hopefully I will be accepted into very good colleges, I'll get a good job, I'll find a major I love, and hopefully my future will be bright! Please pray for me about this too (:

Well, I think I've bored you enough with this LONG AND BORING post. Hopefully you guys will have an amazing summer, and I'll make sure to keep you guys posted on what's going on with me (: I love you guys!

xoxo, phoebe

Here's a little something to put you in the mood for this upcoming summer (:

LOL, Gabe Bondoc is very talented (: He's a great singer, and he's pretty cute. I like this song: it makes me look forward to summer that much more.

I'm worried about my grades T^T I really hope I can bring them up by the end of this year. I pray that God will help me to do well on my finals. If I want to do that, then I should study... STARTING NOW! :O Well, listen to the song! I think it'll be one of my new favorites (: Peace out!

xoxo, phoebe

Grr, these past few days have been really horrible. I got into a fight with my mom, and she said I changed a lot from last year. Apparently, I would always do what she said last year, and I never talked back to her. But now, ever since I started hanging out with all these people she doesn't know too well, I've been "influenced" into becoming disrespectful and mean. It's so stupid how she assumes that my friends make me who I am, when it's really just me. I've just been feeling more rebellious and moody lately. It's probably 'cause I'm just a crazy teenager now. It's so annoying to hear my mom rant about "how I used to be" and "how I never talked back" and all this crap that I don't want to hear. These past few days have made me really just want to get away from everything. I can't wait until I go to college and experience some freedom!

But I do realize she's right. I need to study more if I want to go to a good college. I know it's kind of heartless, but I think I want my motivation for studying to be so that I can go to a good college, a college far away from home. I would like that very much. I just want to be left alone sometimes, you know? But I bet I'm being overly dramatic. I can be so spoiled sometimes. I just feel so moody and so horrible about myself that it's really put me down.

It's okay though! Summer's coming up, and so is my Sweet Sixteen (: Another year of my life passing by, and I want to make the most of it! I want to be a person who is on fire for God, a good student, a good Christian, and someone who lives every moment of her life to the fullest; I don't want any regrets. The year you turn sixteen is a very important year, and I want to fill it with amazing memories I never want to forget.

I'm glad that writing a blog entry has become habit. I feel weird whenever I don't write one up. Hopefully this trend will continue :)

I'm stressing out so much because of school, but it kind of sucks because I don't really have anyone to talk to. Some of my friends have their own problems, so I don't want to bother them with mine; my other friends seem to be off in the distance somewhere, so I don't really talk to them; I have other friends, but I don't really want to talk to them about it because they're more in the "Acquaintance" genre... it kind of feels like I need to hold it in. Well, not hold it IN. I can always talk to God :) But lately I think I've been forgetting he's there because I'm too wrapped up with all this crap surrounding me. *SIGH I think I should start writing in a journal again. It's nice to compare how you were in the past to how you are now. Besides, it'll be refreshing and I'll feel so much better. I probably shouldn't even be complaining anyway. My mom said "This is the life of a high school student." At first I just dismissed it, but I realized she's right. I shouldn't complain. I should just work harder. Junior year's probably going to be a lot worse, so I should suck it up :) Yayyyyy.

I'm feeling a little blue about the whole distant-friends thing. I probably shouldn't even worry about something so trivial, but it does make me a little sad to think that we're not as close anymore. But it's okay, at least we're still friends, and hopefully we can grow closer once again :) Hahaha.

Well, I should probably just leave it at that for today. My mom always gets annoyed when I'm typing because of the clickity noises the keyboard makes. I promise I'll write in here soon, and I want to start writing in a journal again :) Hopefully I'll be as consistent in that as I am consistent with these blog posts.

xoxo, phoebeeee

Mmm, I don't have much time to write. It's so late, my parents might scold me for typing up a blog entry.

Well, I'm stressing out about school. My grades are so mediocre :( I need to bring them up before school ends or I might not even get into the colleges I want! I guess now's the time where the pressure starts building up. Hopefully everything will be okay.

It's June 1st, but it doesn't feel that special. Just another day. Everything's pretty relaxing and chill, but I think I get annoyed at my parents way too easily. Oh well, I have to keep trying and be understanding.

I made a Zinch thing. Hopefully that can help me out some :)

http://www.zinch.com/captainxphoebe

Here's a christian song that I absolutely love :) I heard it during winter retreat, 2008 I believe. It seems so long ago, but I can still remember how I felt during that time. I was so happy to meet new people and encounter God. I love retreats :)